I got fired. That’s as plain as I can make it. I know I’ve eluded to before but I’ve never really discussed the issues I’ve had at work. I’ve been the subject of harassment on the job for a number of years now. It all stemmed from the clothes I wear but I guess the deeper root of it is, in my previous workplace, having a free spirit intimidates people . I was asked to go home to change a skirt I was wearing and I refused to do so and I was fired for insubordination. The rule there is no skirts more than 2” above the knee. The skirt in question was touching my knee. So, you might know why I was a little more than displeased when I was asked to change it. I’m gonna say this and then I’m going to shut up about the whole firing thing and then we are all going to move forward. Every time I’ve ever been talked to about my clothes there have been numerous people on the same day wearing an article of clothes of the same sort and were not talked to. The dress code there (with numerous other rules made up on the spot) only applied to me and a few others. Every time I did a large wardrobe post on this blog I was reprimanded at work for my clothes. I would stop posting wardrobe post for a while till the dust settled but when I would resume I’d be called back in. Could be a coincidence but I don’t think so. Knowing that I was being watched made me feel like I had to be very careful about what I said on here and as you can tell, a bit paranoid. I guess this is all I have to say about it. I don’t like hanging out in the past. I’m a keep movin’ forward kinda gal.
I’d like to say thank you for all the support I’ve received since leaving in the form of calls, text messages, voicemail and emails. Every time B’s anger flares up I remind him of who you all are and how much love and friendship you’ve shown us. I know it was a big risk for any of you to contact me but you can rest assured no one will ever see any of it. I just want you to know you are appreciated.
Now you all know what happened and we’ll never talk of this again. Here’s why.
I feel amazing right now. I kept waiting for that moment where I’d begin to feel like I got screwed over to creep in or for that moment I’d begin to imagine the management sitting around gloating over their win. Those moments never happened. I feel like I won the lottery. Now, I am still trying to figure out what to do with myself since I’m not working 8 hours a day/5 days a week but I’ve got lots of plans.
One of the things I have in my plans is to start a new blog. It’s time to move on. I know I don’t have a ton of readers but I do have some consistent friends on here that know me pretty well. With this in mind I’m gonna ask you all a favor. Can you tell me what sort of post you’d like to see on the new blog? This would really help me out. I have a few ideas and many of them don’t fall far from this tree. I don’t think I’d mix it up a whole lot different but if there is anything that interest you that you’d like to hear more of I’d be curious to find out what that is.
Now, back to the other plans. I’m gonna be meditating, working out and anything else that will help me to heal my soul from the battered ball of dust it has become. I just want to get back to the girl who used to always think positive and had a much better attitude. I think it might be a while before I can reenter the workplace and maybe if I’m lucky I’ll figure out a way to make my own way in the world and not have to make that reentrance.
One fun thing that has emerged is that everyday I get to wear whatever I want to. Now I’m trying to reimagine my wardrobe. I want to begin to dress like I once did but it’s gonna take me a while to figure things out again. I’ve been so scared for so long I’ve almost forgotten who I am. I’m gonna get it back and while I’m working on it I’ll be singing this anthem:
One last thing. Don’t ever stay in a situation where your soul is not nurtured. It will take away who you are and there is no assurance that you will be able find your way back. You will have a long road of healing ahead. No matter why you tell yourself to stay, whatever those reasons are, it is not worth it.
"It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are."
3 comments:
The door has opened for you and just look at the beauty there...you are about to enter the best times of your life....now step forward beautiful soul and slammed that door behind you. Very much ooking forward to reading more of your blogging and newly discovered fashion.
you have literally brought tears to my eyes. thank you so much.
This has been such a strange and amazing day for my loved ones and their work situations. Honestly, and you know exactly how I mean this, I am so proud for you.
As far as posting goes, I know you don't wanna live in the past, but I really did love your flashback posts and stories. They were awesome.
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